Have you ever had one of those surreal moments that you will never forget? I had one of my own yesterday morning. Emerson and I were going about our business- playing and just hanging out at the house. When I heard my phone ringing, I was hoping it would be Jesse. We hadn't been able to talk the day before and I had been anxiously awaiting his call.
I saw his FaceTime name pop on the screen and I waited for the connection to go through. I was shocked when it wasn't Jesse on the other side of the screen, but one of his friends. It was then that things started to get a little crazy. He told me that Jesse had been in an accident and had broken his leg. Now, if you know my husband at all you will understand my immediate reaction of "You're joking, right?" Jesse loved to joke around and while I couldn't really imagine him playing a joke that mean, I had to ask.
Then the doctor, who was also in the room, spoke up. I immediately knew that it wasn't a joke. They didn't have a lot of information but they did tell me that he had been stabilized and was being well medicated and wasn't in pain any longer. They also asked if I had any questions. At that point, I think I was in shock. I didn't really ask many questions because I just couldn't really process what they were saying. On one hand I was SO thankful that it wasn't something worse and that he was ok, but on the other hand I was worried sick about him.
I was told that he would be evacuated to a military hospital out of the combat zone and that they would most likely do surgery there. Then after a few days of recovery he would be sent home!
They told me that the didn't have a phone or internet where he was but that they would try to get a satellite phone to him sometime later that night.
It was just so much information to process at one time! Although I was calm because I knew he was in good hands, I hated that I hadn't been able to talk to him and hear for myself that he was ok.
The rest of the day was spent trying to stay busy. Does anyone else clean and do craft projects when you are trying to avoid over-thinking something? I cleaned and I sewed and I cleaned some more. In the meantime, I also spent lots of time on the phone with our families sharing what little information I had. Needless to say, the minutes ticked by slower than ever.
Finally, around 4:30 I got a phone call and I was beyond relieved to hear Jesse on the other end of the line. He was in good spirits and said he was feeling ok because of the all of the medication he was on. We were able to talk for about 20 minutes and I felt so much better after talking to him. I also teased him that he didn't have to go and break his leg so he could get back home to us.
And now I just wait. I am just sick that I cannot be there for him, especially through surgery. He assured me that he is in good hands, so I am doing my best not to worry. Really the only thing I can do right now is put my trust in God and continue to pray. And, of course, count down the days until my husband makes it home.
It's definitely not the homecoming that we expected and it's not under the best circumstances, but I am thankful that he is coming home. I know that he will have a long road of recovery ahead of him but at least I will be able to be with him every step of the way.