Well, I can definitely say that the last two days have been the longest of my life. I've been trying to take Emerson to do stuff and to keep busy but I have to be honest and say that my heart just hasn't been in it. These definitely haven't been my best mommy days. I've been distracted, impatient, overwhelmed, and exhausted and I feel pretty bad about it. Luckily, my sweet girl loves me unconditionally and we started today with a clean slate. I have prayed and prayed for God to allow me to put my worry aside so that I can be the mommy that Emerson deserves, despite what else is going on.
I've been able to talk to Jesse several times and he is doing as well as can be expected. He is still waiting to be flown to a military hospital in Europe. He said everyone has been taking excellent care of him and I think they have been doing the best they can to manage his pain.
I think the waiting has been the hardest. I am just so ready for him to be out of there! And, of course, to get the surgery over with so that he can get home to us. We don't really have a definite timeline for his return but it will hopefully be sooner than later. I think it depends on how the surgery goes and how stable he is afterwards. From what I understand he has a fracture in his fibula (I first said tibia- I was wrong) as well as an ankle that is pretty much shattered. The doctor told him that he will probably have 9 screws and 2 metal plates in his ankle. He won't be able to walk on it (or drive!) for about 8 weeks and should be fully recovered in 4-6 months. It's definitely going to be a long road but I know we will get through it together. Honestly at this point my main worry is all of the stairs in our house! I told Jesse I was going to get him one of those electric wheelchairs that carry you up and down the stairs (like in Up.) :)
I've had so many people ask me if I am happy that Jesse is coming home. I think the answer is obvious! Of course I am happy that he is coming home, but I would have never wished for it to be in this way. I know he is so excited to come home to his girls, but he is also very upset about leaving his Marines (not to mention the pain he is in.) It's strange because I am so, so excited to see him but I am also just heartbroken over the whole situation.
Jesse and I both have been talking about how everything happens for a reason and that God must have really wanted him home with us. We are also both so thankful that it is not something even worse. As I've anxiously waited for updates over the last few days I've often thought about the Marines and soldiers who are severely injured. I can't imagine what their wives and families go through waiting for life or death updates. I've been so sick about not being there with Jesse as he goes through this, I just can't even begin to fathom what it's like for the families of guys with life threatening injuries.
So, that's an update on what's going on with us. As you can see, my thoughts are all over the place so I apologize for this post being a bit jumbled. It's just been a crazy few days! My main source of comfort has been prayer (and support from everyone!) and I have a few specific prayer requests:
1. For safe transport for Jesse to Europe
2. That his pain continue to be well managed
3. For the surgeons and doctors caring for him
4. For a successful surgery with no complications
5. For a quick recovery so that he can get home to us
6. For Jesse's overall well-being, both mentally and physically.
I know there will be more once we get through this phase, but for prayers for any or all of those things would be amazing! Thank you again to everyone for your kind words and support. It is truly amazing and appreciated more than words could ever say!