Anyway, we were a little bit nervous to find out where he would be working and what deployment schedules would look like since we had originally thought that he was going to a unit that would not be deploying. Luckily, he was assigned to the squadron he really wanted and he'll be working with the planes that he likes. When we found out we were relieved knowing that they were not scheduled to deploy for a long while.
Of course, as is common in the military, this all changed when he checked in. We learned that the deployment date has been moved up and is quite a bit sooner than we anticipated. For the first few days after hearing this news I kind of just brushed it off. I mean, if you don't think about it it's not real. Right?
But the reality of it is really starting to sink in now and the thought of it just makes me sick. This is not our first deployment and we have been apart quite a bit over the last few years, but this time it is so much different. Mainly because of Emerson. That baby girl loves her Daddy to the moon and back and I just can't even imagine her not getting to see him every day. Every morning when she wakes up she asks me, "Where's Daddy?" I dread the days when I have to tell her that he we won't see him for a while. And I absolutely hate that Jesse will miss out on a single second of our sweet girl's life. These precious moments go by way too quickly and I know he will be heartbroken to be so far away.
We were also hoping to start planning for baby #2 and this definitely changes things! It's a little bit harder to plan for a baby when you are continents apart! We are currently struggling as to whether we want to wait until after the deployment is over or throw caution to the wind and see what happens. In the end I know it it is all in God's hands but this is one thing I have a hard time letting go of. The thought of being pregnant and taking care of E by myself is
The truth is that we are just one of many, many families who have gone or are going through something similar. It's just part of this life that we signed up for. I know we will be fine. We will make it through and we will be an even stronger family when it's over.
But it sure isn't fun to think about. Luckily there are are plenty of distractions to keep us busy and we are going to do our best so soak up every second and enjoy our time together. That's the best we can do, isn't it?