When I decided to join in Beth Moore's Siesta Scripture Memory Team, I hoped that each verse I chose would really speak to me and maybe even change me a little bit. The Lord knows I need all the help I can get and I have been praying for Him to show me the verses that he wants me to commit memory.
My first verse, Proverbs 31:25, jumped out at me because of the transition we are currently going through. I've told you guys before that I am a worrier by nature. I can sit and stew over things for hours when in the end I really have absolutely no control over any of it. I thought the verse was perfect because it reminded me that I don't need to worry about the future because He is in control. Isn't that a comforting thought? No matter what life throw my way, I know that God has a reason for it and all that He asks is that I remain strong and dignified while also leaning on Him. Memorizing that verse was easy for me and I can now recite it forwards and backwards. I hope that it will stick with me forever...
My second verse is James 1:19.
Understand this, my dear brother and sisters. You must be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to anger.
My first true encounter with this verse was during the James study I did last year. I remember reading it and being immediately convicted. I had to take a good, hard look at myself. Am I quick to listen? Do I hold my tongue and remain calm? I'm sure you can guess that my answer was a big fat NO.
You see, I've always been a talker. I mean, I went to the principal's office in Kindergarten for talking too much. Really. So it's easy for me to say that talking a lot is in my nature. And now that I am a stay at home momma, I crave adult conversation so badly. That means when I do get around other adults I tend to talk my head off. I honestly don't let the other person get a word in edgewise.
As far as listening goes, I'm sure you can guess that I'm not the best at that. How can I be when all I do is talk? I thought about this quite a bit during our James study but I don't think I really took action on it. So when I was deciding on my second verse for SSMT, this immediately popped into my head. When I first chose it I thought only the first portion of the verse really pertained to me. I'm not an angry person by nature and I don't feel like I get mad very easily.
But after thinking about it a little more these last few weeks I realized that while I don't get angry, I do get easily annoyed. And in the end isn't that really the same thing? As I work on committing this verse to memory, I pray that God uses it to change me.
Wouldn't it be neat to go from someone who talks too much to someone that everyone comes to because they know you will listen? Or to be able to hold your tongue no matter what the situation? And to remain patient, happy, and calm when faced with anything?
It sounds like a lot- maybe even impossible. Especially for someone like me who loves to talk. But guess what? It is possible! I know I can't do it by myself. And I know that I'll never do it perfectly but I also know that I can do it. With Him.
And that is the power of committing to memorize His word. It doesn't just sit there in your memory. It speaks to you. It reminds you. It makes you want to be different. To be a better person. I just can't wait to see what verse He has in store for me next!