Lately I have felt like I am in a never ending cycle of failing to accomplish anything. Besides a few embroidery projects here and there, I feel like I rarely follow through with a task to completion. It's not that I don't have good intentions, it just seems that time slips away from me. And while two and a half hours (nap time for E) sounds like a long time, it seems to fly by in an instant.
It seems like just as I am settling into a task, she is waking up and ready to be cuddled. While I absolutely covet that time, it also means that I probably won't get much else done until after she's in bed. And though I tell myself that I will tackle my to do list as soon as my little princess is asleep, I have to be honest here. Besides doing the dishes and straightening up, I rarely do much once E is in bed. Most of the time Jesse and I sit down to watch a show together and not long after that we make our way to bed.
And each night when I'm going to bed I think about the bible study pages I didn't complete, the workout I failed to do, and the blog post that was never written. It's just an ugly cycle of guilt that repeats itself over and over again. For someone like me who thrives on getting stuff done and marking items off the to-do list, it's not a good feeling. It's hard to feel accomplished when you don't actually accomplish anything.
For weeks now I have been promising myself that I was going to make a change. That I was going to find a way to manage my time more efficiently so that I could get it all done.
But recently I came to a conclusion: If I want to get more done, I absolutely have to make more time. And the only way to do that? Cut back on one of the things I love the most. Sleep! Yep, that's right. It's time for this momma to start getting up a little bit earlier. On most nights I am in bed by 10:00 or 10:30 and I don't get up until my little alarm clock wakes me up between 7:00 and 7:30. So I'm usually racking up a solid 9 hours of sleep. While it is awesome to get lots of extra sleep, it also cuts into some valuable time that I could use to do things that I like to do (and NEED to do.)
So last night, I made the promise to myself that I was going to get up this morning before Emerson and get a workout in. I sat out my workout clothes and picked out the DVD that I wanted to do. And then I set my alarm for 5:30 a.m.
I can't tell you when I last saw 5:30 a.m, but it's been a while! I'm not going to lie and tell you that I jumped right out of bed when that alarm went off. Nope. Actually I hit snooze several times. But I did actually drag myself out of bed at around 5:50 and even though I didn't really want to, I got dressed and headed downstairs to workout.
The first 5 minutes were pure torture and all I could think about was hitting stop and marching myself right back upstairs so that I could crawl back into bed. But after about 25 minutes, I wasn't even tired anymore. When I was finished? Well I had more energy than I've had in weeks. Even though the workout was a bit painful and I might have felt like throwing up a few times, I felt SO good afterwards.
To top it all off, I even had time to sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee while catching up on my Bible study. And for the first time in I don't know how long, I took a long shower without worrying about what Emerson was doing. It was perfect!
I quickly came to the conclusion that cutting out those few hours of extra sleep was 100 percent worth it and I vowed to make it a daily habit. I'm sure it's going to take some getting used to, but I sure hope I stick with it. I know that this little change may not be life changing, but it certainly changed my day.